Do You Talk To Yourself? I Do!

I was getting ready and I heard my sister say, “Are you talking to yourself?” Well yes…yes I was, and wasn’t ashamed at all. She mentioned how people usually whisper when they’re talking to themselves, but oh not I; I was talking on a normal level. If this was 2 years ago, I would deny it. I honestly don’t recall talking to myself; I used to laugh at people, especially my mom who did/does it often. I’d rather talk to myself, than go crazy not talking to anyone. I took my first sabbatical in 2015. I had never taken a sabbatical before and I wondered how it would be. Get out of America, be alone, no tv other than unbiased news and channels which you can’t even understand, hardly on the phone (really only checking in with family)…grow physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I’ve always been my best friend, but when you’re on a sabbatical…you really become your best friend because you kind of have no choice lol. I found myself making jokes in my head and laughing at them out loud. I found myself making decisions, talking it out in my head, but then coming to the final answer out loud. During my 2016, I just got bold with it. When I would get lost, I would have whole out loud conversations with how I was going to get to where I need to be. My laughs to my jokes became louder, hell I even said the jokes out loud lol. I remember seeing people look at me…and I looked at them like, “Hey, hello.” But at the end of the day, I need to talk. I remember that I went months without hardily talking. I had one consisted client, and I was able to spend most of my days working from home; just me and my computer. When that contract ended at 6 months, I had to go back out into the field, and to be honest, those first 2 weeks had me stumbling over my words. I knew what I was saying in my head, but I would get hella tongue twisted speaking. And yes, I read books during that time, but I read in my head. So…yes I talk to myself, and no I don’t feel any type of way about it 🙂 . This is just one of the tons of randomly crazy things about me 😛