Nervous About Getting Into Graduate School

I’ve been working in my GMAT prep book and the pages are flying by; I can almost see the back cover. I secretly don’t want the book to end. I know that when I finish the book, I have to start looking at times to schedule this test. I haven’t been doing as bad as I thought I would have on these practice tests so that’s good. My problem area is math but it was always been that way when I’m taking test like these. With the SAT I didn’t care what score I received because I was top 10% of my graduating class which means I could have got accepted into any college because of being in the top 10%; it’s some college rule. But with this, if I don’t score at least in the 600’s…I can hang it up. MBA graduate school is so much more competitive than undergraduate college. I have my eyes set on only two colleges, USC and UCLA, and I don’t plan on looking anywhere else. The class sizes are so small and everything about the applying process seems so challenging. I’m very young to be a senior so I don’t have all those work experiences that someone 3 years older than me would have. I want to go to graduate school straight after I graduate and I don’t want have to wait. I’ve never seen a “sorry to inform you but you’re not accepted” letter before. I don’t know how I would take that. Then you have to choose whether you want to apply for the MBA full-time or evening. With the full-time I don’t know if I would have enough time to go to school and work to earn enough money to not have to live paycheck to paycheck to pay my bills in California because I don’t want to move in with my father. But I definitely feel I don’t have enough qualifications to attend the evening program since it is for working professionals. I won’t be able to start looking for job until this summer so I can try to lock in a job in California after I graduate in December 2011. But even then, the evening program wants a letter from your employer and the deadline is in October, meaning I still would be in college finishing up my degree in Houston; not working in California. But if I get into the full-time program, what am I going to tell my employer when school starts August 2012? I can’t just up and quit and who is to say they will have part-time positions available. I really don’t want to have to take this GMAT twice because I don’t receive a good score. And I really don’t want to have to apply for the 2013 year either because I feel I won’t be as focused on obtaining a graduate degree anymore. Is it cliché to say I wish I could see the future now?