A Relationship Is A Job And “Talking” Is An Interview; And Let’s Not Forget The Age Factor

A Relationship Is A Job And “Talking” Is An Interview; And Let’s Not Forget The Age Factor

I met this guy named Nicholas at my school and after spending some time with him, it got me to thinking. I feel like I’m in a F-In interview. A really started feeling it because when you first hanging out with someone, it’s like a million questions thrown at you and they stare at your every move like you’re an animal in a zoo. It feels like you’re on personal display. Can you imagine going to a relationship zoo; it’s called speed dating. lol. Yes it’s out there. lol. But then after reading hella Facebook Notes that people post about relationships, it gets me to thinking; we are in a relationship recession. Plenty of people are getting laid off an plenty of people are interviewing to get a new job (relationship). The difference with this is that everyone doesn’t need a job. This process becomes very awkward because everyone is “supa dupa” different. (Yes I’m back to using the old “supa dupa” word. lol) I’m going to go through the last people that tried to “talk” to me lately since my year long relationship ended in May with LeRon.(Yes I name drop here so if you don’t want your name on here, you might as well not know me. lol) So I met Nicholas and he seemed interested in me but I don’t think we could ever be because he’s so hung up on the fact I’m a “90’s” baby. He was born in my older sisters birth year (1986). I’m totally fine with being “friends”. I would never want to hear that every time I’m around him. I’ve had dudes at 27 be ok with it so it was kind of weird. lol. All I could think of was “Young Girl” by Pharrell and Jay the whole time. lol. Then Dewayne and he was older. I don’t care for industry dudes and besides I met him on Twitter. He’s a cool person but with him I feel like I was the one putting him on display. We did the phone and texting interview approach. Then there was Brandon…Ya’ll can scroll down to see how that went. I’m not even about to talk more about that because we have cut off all communication. lol. He don’t even say Hi when he sees me. hmmm. But anyways, he’s my age…Can’t do it! We had more of the text interview approach, but I had knew him from high school. Then there was Jaquel. He was older and ok with it. But I wasn’t looking for a relationship so honestly I played to run around until I just ended up telling him how I felt about everything. Seems like I was on display there too especially in person. He also seemed to do the text thing. But with him he had bashed a 18 year old then I had to clear it up that I was 18.lol.There was then “The Photographer”. He’s well respected in what he does so I’m not going to put him out there like that. If I could remember his government name then I would. lol. But he was hella older, like late 20s.He was cool. I felt like we were both on display (zoo approach).But he was just to busy for me. I could totally respect that though because he’s wears many career hats. He had to warm up to the fact that I was 18, but he ended up accepting it. Then there was Bobby. He was older too.(By the way when I’m saying older all these guys were in their 20s). I believe he liked the idea of me, he didn’t like the real me after I was on display. Maybe he felt the same vibe from me because it wasn’t going to go nowhere. We had the phone and “zoo” interview approach. Then there was Ryan (he just had turned 20).We were just TOO much alike that it wasn’t going to go anywhere. He did phone interview approach and that supa dupa different than the “zoo” type display. I liked that better because the zoo approach doesn’t seem so weird. lol. With “The Photographer” we never did the phone thing. I guess the higher the 20s get, the less phone and more “zoo” approach and vise versa. So I’m saying that I don’t see how people causally date. That’s crazy! You put yourself on display like an animal in a zoo and most of the time it gets no where. People are looking for the jobs when they just need to sit and fine-tune their resume or stop sending out their resume to every job just hoping one calls them back. I feel that being on display all the times becomes LAME and useless. Yes, I get that sometimes it isn’t a two way display because you could be just wanting a friend and they could be observing for more than that. But this has to stop because I refuse to be an animal in a zoo. You do it for so long and it can leave one wondering about themselves, because one person could love every quality about you, and the next person could think that your a sucky ass person. You start to think what did I do wrong, or what do I need to change. Being on display so much can being to make you critique yourself, and now you’re being displayed by your own self. But don’t do that because every job is not for you. Just because the outside looks good (the pay) doesn’t mean you’re going to love the job and vise versa. And there you go starting over being on display again. Just wait young lad…in due time. lol